Routines

I am very routine driven. I have a morning routine. I have a lunch routine. I have an after work routine. Hell, I probably have a while I’m sleeping routine. I am routine driven. So when my routine(s) are interrupted or altered I tend to get very lost and frustrated. 

Recently, one of our dogs had major surgery. She required someone to be around 24/7 so she didn’t jump or get licked by her brother. Ten days of dog sitting. Ten days not doing what I typically do. Different sleep pattern. Different work schedule. And so on. It was hell for my wife and I. And I’m sure it was hell for our dog. She was ready to be left alone without one of us hover over her.

In those 10 days I became very tired and lost. I would stare off into space as if I were a lone traveler spending day after day in various airports and modes of transportation. I didn’t know what day it was or if I was supposed to be somewhere. I blew my almost 280 consecutive days of meditation practice. I gained weight. I didn’t write as much. And I didn’t take one photo or post any work. I went through the motions and looked forward to the end of the day.

By the time she was able to be left alone, I was worn out and empty. Mood swings and complete lack of interest in anything and everything. I’m finding it difficult to get into a routine again - especially with hobbies like photography. I’m over thinking it. I’m a typical Type A/perfectionist person. I know my desire for perfection is keeping me from shooting. I’m still tired, but I’ll blame our goofy weather and the holidays for that. Hopefully I’ll get off my ass during my break and go shoot.